Money is such a complicated consumer of idolization. I am responsible for it's annoying presence in my life. But so wonderful is today! I have so many distractions that keep me focused. That reads like a contradiction but in actuality it is. ha.
Dreams have begun to take on life. I'm looking at you in the eyes and I feel no intimidation. I feel no fear (today). I feel no dishonesty. I feel nothing. But I know... I am meant to be with you. It's true what "they" say; when I cannot move another step, I am carried.
Work is what it is; labor to pay off my debts. Honestly, I don't like it everyday. But I do find solace in the lessons I learn from the interesting characters around me. It's truly something to behold. For every situation, I am responsible for my part. So, overtime I feel like quitting I know I have another opportunity to take the shit and grow flowers.
School = not an easy task. I heard college was hard but now I see what "they" were saying without saying it. The actual classes are not hard. It's the quarter life crisis of "What is my purpose for living?" I have felt it and I'm working through it. To understand oneself is trying... not the textbooks.
Relationships... I used to love to think I could do it all on my own. Which, is true. I can do plenty of nothing on my own just fine. But then there comes time to make decisions, move forward, and learn new ideas. If nothing new is under the sun... then I see the greater importance of listening to my elders. "They" are the "they" anyway.
J.Reed
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